spring

Spring didn't come when I sought for it

It didn't come last December when I thought I wanted a bit of sun and a bunch of flowers to pick.

Spring came subtly

Knocking on my door, it entered without me knowing

It walked in like a gentle breeze, the kind you'd find by the sea where the seagulls soar.

Spring came last afternoon when I walked home and a wreath of white jasmines hanging by a random Kathmandu gate blessed my way.

It came when this morning's temple bells reminded me of Dashain.

Spring came when I realied that these were some final blooms I was witnessing at my first, my favorite home ever,

Kathmandu.

Spring came when I realized I wouldn't book flights to come home next March,

It came when I realized that the fragrant white jasmines wouldn't again be on my way home next April.

Spring came subtly, not when I sought for it, but so absolutely when I needed it.

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